The Poetry Corner - Invisible Appearance Of A Tired Heart

Recently, I have been in a very emotionally-drenching situation. Sometimes, no matter how we project ourselves as a strong person, there are occasions where we're beaten by melancholy. There are those times where we submit ourselves to loneliness, just to feel again that we are human and that we are not as invincible as the superheroes in films. Well, for me it's good though that once in a while you recognize yourself as a plain human with normal emotions and candid reactions to events and situations that are presented to us. Vulnerability is not a bad thing after all. Being one, once in a while helps you re-affirm of your being an earthly creature. And here's what I'm into these past few days. I just transcribed it into a poem. Just read between the lines. 

Invisible Appearance Of A Tired Heart

by: Jay Rada Rafol

January 12, 2013

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

In the deepest of night I was unbearably bothered

Why am I in my state of suppression and depression?

I always wanted to cry-out loud and quit with life

But suddenly a thought has made me crippliest of crippled-like

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

I've always wanted to reach out to communicate

To end up my lie-low emotion and widening gap not to create

But I was deeply drowned with paranoia and hate

To catch up, rejuvenate to wonderfully communicate

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

In the shadow of darkness of my shattered dreams

Cheer me up oh dear God coz I'm in my lowest esteem

My wings are broken and strength should be regained

Help me fix and fuel them coz I alone won't fly again

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

Help rekindle my weak spirit cast a guiding light on it

Your friend is aching with the harshness life brings

Am I that bad to suffer with all these cruel things?

Or just wasted and delinquent with some other's feelings

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

Please share a lift, teach me some balance of my heavy loads

Cast out some uncertainties in my drowning spirit

I am in oblivion and can hardly stand with it

Badly in need and thirsting of your unsolicited advice in bits

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

Your friend now lost his zest and drive for life

Kindly polish my soul with your magnificent wit

I might be awakened and make a sound rebound

To make up for the friendship stronger and in constant ground

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

My apology please accept for slight negligence

I just woke up one day and the mess is here

I always tried to cope-up but the spirit is low

I ended up failure and now in demeanor

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

Do you think I still have a place in your world

Are you still in constant belief that I can still make up for the mess

I do hope your response will gear me up sooner

God, you are the last and the best of all my frontier

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

Does this man still has a place in your friendship?

I have been inactive and neglected my physical presence

But I won't forget a wonderful bestfriend you're no.1 on the list with essence.

Hey God! what's up? here I am, are you still there?

Is your friendship's door still open for my renewed entrance?

I may have deprived you of my constant appearance

I may have not showed-up for several months

But I am always at your side with my invisible appearance.