I have been sitting all day since 10AM in the morning working on an urgent office work and my butt is aching now. Awwwww....ang sakit talaga...hahaha..sign of aging..hahaha. And so I decided to take a break.
Now my company is a mug of milk with tea blend. Take note, It's LIPTON's Clear Green Tea (my fave). I need to sip something hot to freshen me up so I did one mug. And I'm using my fave mug. Actually it's a coffee mug but been using it for blending tea as well.
While doing some relaxation after havin' a break from the enslaving "inventory reconciliation + purchasing follow-up & inquiries" and my right hand holding the mug of milk tea, may naisip na naman ako. "Jay lagi ka nalang may naiisip..tugon ko sa sarili. Well, eh ano ang magagawa ko eh sadyang palaisip lang akong tao...hehehe..
I think I need to set a more concrete GOAL this time. I think I need to set high priorities in my life. Well, it's not that I don't have one, but I guess there is a need to re-organize what's existing. I can feel the monotony. I want to break out from the routine existence.
Suddenly, I just feel I want to resign to my current life and embark to a new adventure. Ang lalim nun ah...hahaha..puno ng meaning..tsk..tsk..ano naman kaya ang new adventures. Jay, how about doing some innovation of what's already existing. It's more like enhancing, putting more colors.
Siguro nga napapahon na, kelangan na. Kelangan ng tuldukan ang kung anong meron ako na di na ako masaya. Marami ng mga bagay at mga pangyayari na di na ako masaya. Maging iilan sa mga nakakasalamuha ko ay di na ako nagiging comfortable. Tama ba tong gagawin ko. Pero siguro nga may "wisdom" akong makukuha sa "bold move" kung ito. Sabihin na nating kelangan ko lang mag-isip, mag-isa, mag-contemplate, mag-reflect. Siguro maiintidihan naman nila ang magiging desisyon ko.
Gusto kung ibalik ang dating ako. Ang dating may focus, in control, and mapangarap. Di ko na rin sasabihin dito "in details" kung anu-anong mga pagbabago ang gusto kung gawin. Kasi, kapag inilagay ko pa dito natitiyak kung puno na naman nang pang-aalaska ang aabutin ko. Hayaan ko nalang na ang pagbabago ko ang magbibigay sa kanila ng ideya or hayaan ko nalang na sila ang makapansin.
I have reached a point in life where things & situations start becoming a bit blurred. So, before it swallows me, I'll do the change to make it sparks again. Like the tea I'm drinking now, I want my life to be as CLEAR AND GREEN again.
And so today, GOALS has been set & FOCUS starts now and eventually TARGET will be reached.
I'm more determined now. I whisk-off the idea that I'll be doing this to prove something but I'm doing this for my self-improvement. Lord, guide me on this high adventure. A shift which isn't easy. So, I'll say, Jay, good luck to you.